Z wrote:I'm bored...so I'm posting some stuff from the old board...sort of to save memories, and to boost member post counts.
Hi there, Rory here.
I decided to shed some light on the subject of Alm's mind. It's a real struggle trying to play such a scatterbrained character, as I am very collected...most of the time. Sometimes I have my blonde moments, but don't we all?
So why is Alm so messed up?
Simple, I decided at creation to make a very humourous (yes I'm Canadian, how can you tell, the spelling?) character. This meant disregarding my many other ideas to create a stern character with hints of a dark humour. So, instead of creating my original concept I became a simple grassrunner. Now, if anyone hates Maar more than me, I'd give them a medal, but as it is...I am 3000% anti-Maar. I despise Maar with every bone, sinew and so on and so forth of my body and future bodies to come. Alm is a direct result of this hatred of Maar and his super-chipper backstabbing thieving lying...the list goes on...So, as it stood, I made Alm my scatterbrained, half-planning grassrunner. The idea of a grassrunner berserker also went through my head, but I laughed so hard I nearly passed out. So, the broken minded Alm was born. At times he can be a little serious, at times a little silly, but mostly he's just there to have fun...and the secondary reason is to procreate. To spawn an evil half-grassrunner army of darkness to take over Lodoss...at least...that's one of his many objectives.
Alm: Psychological study of a character
Four words: One messed up kid.
To elaborate, the loss of his younger and older brothers to tragic accidents has made poor little Alm to live for his brothers. His older brother had concerned himself with the simple pleasures of life: eating, drinking, being merry. His younger brother was more innocent and naive, preferring to cuddle and be adorable. The real Alm, the TRUE Alm, is the one who actually remembers events and is not the one that screams and runs up trees. He's also not the one who hits on Anisa; the real Alm is best described as a semi-heroic and true to his friends, no matter how small the quantity of friends he has. The other two "personalities" of Alm makes him do things he wouldn't normally. Whether this is a good thing or a bad thing has yet to be seen.
Alm has nightmares, terrible ones, consisting of things his twisted little mind could comprise. The dead rise from the ground, his entrails being eaten, fire scorching the earth and making the living dead into the burning dead. All things consumed by fire and death, the night never ending.
This would scare most people, but for Alm it's torture. The guilt of being unable to help his two brothers while being in the midst of both when they died makes Alm punish himself with these dreams, never truly ending even when he wakes up. The terrible thoughts that occupy the real Alm's mind are enough to cage him while personality one or personality two takes over.
The other side: Alm's creator
I don't like talking about myself very much, but maybe it'll help with the character study of Alm, so I decided to put this section in. Whether this hits the light of day or gets deleted, it doesn't matter.
Now, there are many scary things that are in Lodoss, Berserkers, Werewolves, Goblins, Orcs, Ogres...dragons...magic, undead. These things can be really scary in movies, books and even in the game for the character. But there are scarier things in real life, things we ignore or look at with shock and awe, trying not to come into direct contact with.
A lot of people in the world are afflicted with some type of mental illness or another. I for instance, am schizophrenic, but I take medication to limit the effects of the disease on my every day dealings. While this helps out a little with my problems, there are still many things the medication cannot help with. Somethings are some of the delusions I have, whether my skin is crawling on me, or light brushes of wind in a still room against my cheek. Though I'm taking medication for depression as well, I have a hard time making myself leave the comfort of my bed to just even start the day. I have a hard time to even leave the house when I have to.
Perhaps that is the reason I wanted to make Alm the way he is. To vent some demons and shed some light on the subject of mental illness even if it is just a little side note about Alm's quirkiness. To say that mental illness didn't exist in Lodoss is a crock. Berserkers are only berserkers because they cannot deal with their own demons and let the spirit of Hyuri into them. That is a lot like some cases of people who have split personalities and one of those personalities is very violent. Most things in Earth's history as well as the history of Lodoss was once explained with magic or spirits. Perhaps the idea of mental illness has no place or bearing in the world of Lodoss, if so, I retract my statement fully and apologise to all those I have offended.
What does the future hold for Alm?
Alm, as a whole character, is one who moves like the wind, seeking some amount of rest from his problems before he wanders off in search of more problems to pile onto himself. He's very self-abusive, which is very apparent from the time he slit open his own side to gain sympathy from Anisa and the others. So what does the future hold for Alm? That's really too hard a question to answer, Alm is chaotic, and as such, chaos is eventually where the character will be lead to.
So, in conclusion...that's it. I hope this gave people some insight into Alm, and if not...oh well. Have a nice day.